Emzily

Spicy Opinion that could get me in trouble in some quarters: I'm actually less interested in the new Doctor Who now that I know you-know-who is back, though since I haven't watched the last season (or two?) I suppose it wasn't at the top of my priorities anyway.

All the best to Jodie, though, my waning interest wasn't her fault.

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/50700/the-flower-56d22df9112c4
The Flower by George Herbert
Grief melts away
Like snow in May

Yesterday a friend texted me: "I'm sure you know it's Harry Potter's 41st birthday..."

In previous years, I would have known it was coming for weeks. There was always some Potter Day event in whatever game I was in, or failing that, a newspaper article. If nothing else, one of the many next-gen Potter-Weasleys would have brought it up and there'd be a bunch of cousin comment-spamming over birthday presents and such.

It seems more and more likely that that's not coming back. Facebook friends have posted about how they won't be supporting the series in any way anymore. I can't blame them, but I can't say the same either. Despite it all, HP has meant a lot to me, and I've never been good at letting go.

A lot of friends had already moved on anyway, and HPRP was dying down. We never got a real-time Teddy-and-Victoire-years game, we're never going to have a real-time James-and-Albus-and-co one. I can't resent people having objections or preferences, and I had a lot of good times while it lasted. But nothing else has really fit the bill for me, though I've tried here and there. Nothing else has stuck in the same way.

And that shouldn't be a surprise. It was at such a unique intersection of wildly popular but undeveloped. So many hints that you could take in so many different directions, even apart from flat-out AUs. Worldbuilding you could take for granted or pick apart. You could bury yourself in research, but you didn't have to.

I hate being chased for shipping when I'm not feeling it, I don't know how to get out of it without ghosting the person :(

The problem with playing the kids of characters you didn't already play (or that don't have a canon career path) is that you have to come up with all this headcanon and then a hefty chunk of the history is their parents and it takes forever to get to the kids themselves.

Happy New Year! I had a fairly quiet night, as I've come to prefer for New Year's -- I can't relax going out when I know the dogs will be scared, and there are such weird expectations of enjoyment and socialization on NYE that I've never really succeeded at meeting. So I stayed home, watched Star Wars, and kept the animals company. And today I went to Sephora and didn't care if they were judgemental, like a boss, and then they were actually perfectly pleasant so maybe I don't hate Sephora anymore.

Anyway, one of my yearly traditions is to make up a playlist and then post it, because idk I need to be understood or something. Here's my 2019.

( 2019: Driving )

So I know that I'm, like, the only person in the world who still hates premades and set cast lists, but every time I see a mod explain that they're not flexible and that they spent time creating the list/premades to "ensure balance" I want to say they needn't have gone to the trouble.

Like, that was a decision on your part, it has nothing to do with me. And after all the work you went to I still want to play someone different. Are you regretting your life choices yet?